Springtime Loneliness
I’m relieved that Winter is finally over and we’re taking our first soggy steps into Spring. Ostara was uneventful this year, though the equinoxes tend to be quieter affairs in my family compared to Litha and Yule. I didn’t do very much to celebrate.
My life seems to be a roller coaster lately, with many turns and roundabouts outside my control. I’m doing my best to focus on what’s within my grasp rather than what’s just outside my reach. I’ve unwillingly had to move to a mostly work-from-home schedule due to some office shenanaigans. I’m grateful, as always, to have a flexible job in that respect, but it’s so depressing to be home all the time. I would describe myself as an extrovert with a low social capacity. Meaning, I need to be social and around people to feel OK… but I get tired easily from [i]too[/i] much interaction. It’s quite the Goldilocks situation.
I’m making effort to leave my house, even if I’m by myself, going on walks and window shopping when I can. I visit my family often, but I swear, they are so crazy it gives me psychic damage. It work against the goal of centering myself lol. Maybe I’m the problem.
I moved my desk into my bedroom which seems like a poor idea, but it’s the room in my apartment that gets the most sunlight. It’s cheered me up a lot working in here. Plus, my spare bedroom is where Dudu and I play games and work on hobbies. The nice thing about having a dedicated work desk is to separate the two activities.
As far as hobbies… I’ve been slacking a bit on my web dev. I supposed it’s the usual waves of interest waning and waxing. I started a new campaign of Baldurs Gate 3, so most of my free time has gone to that lately. It’s been two years since I first played it, and that fact is mind boggling to me! It feels like just a couple months ago that I was singing its praises in my gamelog. I’m already planning my next campaign, hehe.
I think to myself that ‘I haven’t been drawing much lately’ but that’s simply true… It’s just that my drawings have been limited to OC doodles on legal pads at work rather than anything thoughtfully rendered or composed. I pushed myself to color one of my cuter doodles the other day, though. It’s my girl Sunny!
Ironically, my favorite drawings are ones that start out as light hearted doodles. I think my lines are more confidant when I’m not trying too hard. It’s like I’m drawing from my heart. ♥️
Anyway, that’s all for now. I hope to blog more often and more casually, as is my intention. My life feels both uneventful and boring, but writing these entries remind me to appreciate the small things.
Feeling: Bored!
Playing: Baldurs Gate 3 (2023)
Watching: Grey’s Anatomy (S6)
Reading: What Lurks Beneath the Fates - Harper L. Woods (DON’T EVEN GET ME FREAKING STARTED)
Listening: Peter, Paul, and Mary